okay that last post got a bit too much, a bit too honest, which, while i aim for that, sometimes it can still feel like i'm overdoing it. considered going back and redacting parts of it, but that's more work than i want to put in right now. so i won't

went to a few goodwills with diego on sunday. i got some green pants. at the first one we went to he found a stack of cups from canes. there were like thirty-three of them. they were the promotional ones with the peel-to-win game on them. he bought the stack for like two dollars and we spent some time in his car peeling the stickers off to see what we'd won. if we managed to spell 'canes' there was a hundred-thousand dollar prize. we got 'c-a-n-e' but not 's'. we also won a few chicken tenders, lots of toast, some sauce, a couple drinks, and some fries. we went to try to cash some of them in. two drinks, one toast, and a sauce. when we got to the paying window the girl told us we could only use one at a time. which is a bullshit rule, seeing as there was no mention of that on the cup. really stopped our plan right in its tracks. she let us each use one, so we both got drinks. diego asked if we could come back later to use more, and she replied 'just becasue you asked that, now i'm gonna keep an eye out for you' with an unwarranted attitude. like, i don't know how we pissed her off for her to reply with that sort of reprimanding-tone. it didn't matter. we weren't going to come back but i started laughing

had dinner at this chinese restaurant in bellaire. the place was built kind of like a castle and features a moat of unnaturally seagreen water. i think there were fish in it too. my mother works for a chinese food packing company and they were throwing a dinner in celebration of chinese new years. i went because i wanted free food and because it was a good opportunity to hang out with her before starting the semester. the food was fine. it was served by dish and the table had to share it. i watched as some teenagers on the younger end of that spectrum snuck a drink of their parent's wine. they made the face any reasonable child would after imbibing cheap wine. i'm sure i made that face too after i took a sip of mine

i went to the rodeo for the first time on monday. kacey musgraves was playing at the rodeo and i considered shelling out the twenty dollars to see her. that album she put out last year was a safe, good country/pop project, but i also told myself i was retired from shows so i didn't go. i liked her music but not enough to spend the hour or two sitting there. would've been nice to be in the stadium though. instead i was just at the carnival part. i think there's an admission cost to the carnival, with rides and food being another, separate charge or charges. i went with kaijah and we got there a bit after nine. the box office was closed so we tried our luck with security. they didn't even check us, so we could have easily snuck in alcohol or something.

i saw car seat headrest again on wednesday. my first concert of 2019, after coming out of retirement, and they were also my last one of 2018. the show was pretty much the same as the one i saw in philly, performance wise. which is fine. he even wore basically the same outfit. black tee, black gauchos. different shoes. and he had a button up that he took off towards the end. he didn't cover a song this time though. he was doing some weird, robotic dance moves that i was kind of charmed by, but at the end kaijah said it was 'the whitest shit he'd ever seen'. i'm still in love with will toledo.

i'm just now realizing i lied. i told kaijah and german that car seat covered 'hey ya' by outkast in philly. that's not true. it's one of those false memories. i don't remember what song they covered in philly. i misremembered 'hey ya' because they did a cover of it that was posted on youtube not longer after their philly show. didn't mean to mislead

still haven't found a pair of black gauchos for myself

okay,i drafted most of this post, everything before this, before flying to buenos aires and have continued to put it off to the point where i have a lot to say on a post that would become confusing, since it would span over ten days. so i'm gonna write some current thoughts and then post a more elaborate one tomorrow or so. i do intend to post more

it's saturday night. people go out around one or two in the morning. it's only midnight. i just woke up from a nap. i don't know what to do. i could go out, but i'm not really a club kind of person. i don't want to go to a bar by myself. i stopped by a grocery store earlier to buy some instant coffee since i dropped the last jar of it. i looked for sapporos, which i didn't fine, but i did find another rice beer called 'tsingtao'. they were about two dollars each. i purchased two. its now half past midnight. gonna drink one and see how i feel after re: going out. i just don't want to have people on monday ask me what i did friday/saturday night and say i slept early. i know its fine since i have plenty of time to go out and stuff, but i'm aware that part of this preference for sleep is just me being reclusive and slightly depressed