my ethics class was cancelled in order for my professor to hold a screening of the kavanaugh hearing. she didn't exactly require us to go to it. she wasn't taking attendance. but most of us went anyway. i don't want to write about what happened in the hearing too much. i've dealt with it enough today. i know there's going to be plenty of places to read up on it. this blog doesn't have to be one of them. republicans are dumb if they still support him. just pick another judge. democrats are weak and didn't really press him. the state of politics sucks. i feel more and more hopeless. i still try, i do what i can, but it increasingly feels like it's all for nothing

my other class was also just us watching clips from the hearing. which i had already seen. that's all today was about

luckily i don't have any real classes tomorrow. i'm gonna sleep and not worry about these things. it's pointless

wait, the one good thing to come out of today was elon musk getting sued by the sec for alleged fraud. glad something's finally happening to him. hope that diver sues him too. even still, i know it's meaningless. a twenty million dollar fine is a drop in the bucket for a billionaire, but the public humiliation that comes with it makes it better

talked with someone about whether using the term 'political activism' was better for getting people to acknowledge that we live in a dystopian society, as opposed to using more revolutionary language. i think the former is more palatable, but people are, for the most part, content in their cognitive dissonance. this is part of why i feel pessimistic. though, i'm sure the hearing greatly influenced that sentiment