sent a proposal to some conference in pa this fall. it would be cool to go. my professor told me i should try to do it, and i kinda wen through a lot of trouble to send it in. that reminds me, the professor who told me that i won the essay contest said that my paper would be posted on the website, but that has yet to happen. i keep looking for it and nothing. i also want my check

here's an idea. you know how some people put melted cheese and stuff into their bags of hot cheetos? photoshop that concoction onto a picture of someone opening their bi-fold wallet

i think that if the world gives houston a series win over golden state, then the singularity will have been proven. like, houston just got it's first world series win. all of texas too, if i'm being honest. the rockets are projected by everyone to lose. so if they win, that would be too many good things for houston in such a close time frame. doesn;t even matter if the rockets actually win the title. if they do though... might have to mode to the desert or something

there was a school shooting in galveston today. ten people died. i walked to the library but it was closed. as i walked past city hall on the way to the bus stop, i saw the flags at half staff. i got emotional. i felt kinda like crying. i don't know. it's a lot to process. like that was only an hour away. i know no one i know was in danger or ever could have been, but it still like 'right in my backyard'. spent the rest of that walk through downtown thinking about death. had some suicidal thoughts. i don't think they were indicative of my current mental health state. probably more to do with just that theme of death from the shooting and the flag. so i'm not alarmed. also kinda made me want to smoke a lot. just to harm myself. again, i attribute these thoughts more to the somber mindset i had

i made some coffee and it's jsut after eleven. i put cream and sugar in it. my eyes feel a bit heavy