i think, all those episodes of something suddenly seeming unnatural or becoming impossible are, in my own way, a form of dissociating. sometimes names don't feel real. sometimes my hands don't feel real. yeah, i think it has to be that, but i don't know why it started happening more as of late. stress maybe? that could be it. do have a lot of things to worry about right now. oh well. gonna call home tomorrow. meant to do that today but that's just the way things go

i heard bunnies can't handle baths. at least that what someone once told me. that they gave their sister's bunny a bath and it ended up dead by the next day. this made me believe bunnies couldn't handle a bath. like, that water was somehow deadly to them. well, i looked it up and i don't think it was the water itself that killed the bunny, but the shock and stress that comes with being unexpectedly dunked in water that cause it to croak. animals can't really handle stress well. i know stress is a huge part of pets dying, specifically smaller ones. maybe the amount of stress an animal can handle depends on how large they are? people can handle a lot of stress without dying. like, their hair will fall out and they'll look sickly, but they won't die because of it, i don't think. but reptiles and small mammals will just... die because of it. crazy world