i realized that i've been increasingly adding "idk" or "i don't know" after making a statement. at first i wasn't sure why that was. maybe i was admitting my limitations when conjuring up ideas or opinions. now, i think it has a lot more to do with relieving myself of any repercussions what i say may bring. it's not at admission of my own possible shortcomings but more of a way to, i don't know, take the edge off my statements. maybe make them less serious, more lighthearted

last saturday i saw a young mouse in the store and felt.. bad? i'm not sure bad is the word i want to use here but it's the only one that i can think of at the moment. i felt "bad" for the mouse because i noticed it wasn't particularly fast. i would have been able to catch it had there not been boxes in the way. the poor mouse would be trapped with two cats unless it managed to escape, but with how cold it's been, that wouldn't have happened. today, after opening, as i went to feed the cats, the mouse was in their bowl, dead. i wasn't saddened by it, since i knew this would happen