had trouble sleeping. was up until at least 6am doing nothing. kept telling myself that i was tired and that if i tried to get work done i'd just fall asleep.

while walking to class, i was struck by a strange feeling, that i was walking out of rhythm. like, every step i took felt silly or even ridiculous. the episode lasted less than ten seconds

i've found that the easiest forms of self harm, and consequently the only forms i'm willing to take part in, are depriving myself of sleep and intentionally skipping meals. i guess damaging relationships could be argued as self harm, but i feel it has to have physical ramifications for it to fully fall under that label. regardless, might deprive myself of sleep for a second night in a row

probably not, but i'll pretend like i did because i feel stupid. i'll self harm in spirit. solidarity

could be that i'm already sleep deprived and that's where these feeling are coming from, but i'm also not trying to be "healthy" right now. i'm all into this self destructive behavior! yeah