i've been meaning to do a lot of things. i have a lot of work i'm behind on for classes. also have to make sure i memorize my lines completely, since my first performance is on thursday. glad emmett is coming down for the weekend. he'll get to see my train wreck of a performance (not really). have a lot of books to read by the end of the month. i've wanted to invest more in my wardrobe, but between records/books/recreational activities, i've found it hard to do that. i need a new carhartt hat, since mine has become outstretched. also want to get a haircut before thursday. don't feel like dealing with my hair for the performance. would be easier to just cut two to three inches off. i'm technically done with work early in the week, but I wont be flying home until the following day. gonna try and spend some more time with friends before i disappear for a month. wont really disappear, but i can dream

instagram finally gave the me archive function, or at least i just noticed it today. don't really care to archive anything, that seems fake. but it's good to not feel behind anymore

i feel ashamed that when i called home, i did so without the knowledge that it was both my brother and my mother's birthday. i had no intention of saying anything about that because i actually did not realize it was that day. i'm sure that i would've realized that by the end of the day, but i still couldn't admit that i hadn't remembered to them. have been kinda off about remembering things. the world really is against me