i checked my public library account this morning and found that i owe 74.95$. i brought two books with me to campus, knowing very well i'd have to mail them home. because of the hurricane (thanks, harvey!) i was granted a longer grace period before fees were tacked on to my account. regardless, i held on to them too long and had accumulated some fines. i mailed them and told my family to return them. They said they would. called and confirmed with them that they had arrived. unsurprisingly, they forgot to drop them off. wouldn't have found out if i hadn't had the strange urge to check. i feel terrible about it. i support public libraries and now i owe them 75$? i think it would've been closer to 30$ had they returned them when i called. doesn't matter now. have to pay that back somehow.

i stopped smoking ~6 months ago. usually people claim that their health improves after making that change. i would say that's partly true, but i have had this strange cough for a while. have had it for ~3 months. it was worse earlier on. has been subsiding as of late, but just when i think its gone it reappears. at times i fear it might be something bad like an object in my lungs or even cancer, but i doubt it. hopefully it goes away soon.

one of the pros of smoking cigarettes was the cartons. i liked to cut out the logos from the parliaments i'd smoke. id fashion them into little rectangles and use them as bookmarks. i gave one of these bookmarks to rae. she gave me one made of a newport menthol box (ew) but it was thoughtful. i have it lying around in some book i think. cant recall which one. i'm only reminiscing on this because i've run out of bookmarks. i hate using post it tabs. and all my other ones are in their own books. i need to find something else to use but i cant think of anything that isn't something dumb like a piece of paper.