remembered how some stranger sent me a strongly worded email where they expressed a desire for bad things to happen to me. i want someone to send me another one of those. it was a rush. i want that feeling again

coming up on the year mark. a little over two months away. i feel more compelled to write now that i'm in pa again

mac miller died today due to an overdose. i think i understand drug abuse. that need to get away from everything. heartbreaking that a desire like that could be the last thing you feel. well, i guess there might be a sense of euphoria, depending on the drug. but that numbness would be the last thing. i never really listened to him, but that's not the point. overdoses are sad. people should reach out for help. i know that's hard though