tomorrow i get to bond in silence with my father while drinking and watching mexico get [redacted] by germany. i woke up early to watch the argentina game, which was underwhelming. messi missed a penalty, which brings back to mind what my father said yesterday about calming nerves and what not. i don't disagree, i just still feel they are a bit of a cop out when it comes to hat tricks. anyway, this mexico game is probably going to be a hard watch, since mexico has historically under-performed against germany, as recently as last year's 4-1 game. i haven't been impressed with their form in the friendlies leading up to the world cup, so i don't have a good taste in my mouth from their performances. still, i'm hoping they can come out with a draw

if it hasn't been noticeable, i try and shy away from using numbers and instead opt to type them out. i just used them in the prior paragraph, which unsettles me but i won't go back and change it. i mostly reserve it for years but i guess score lines are fine too

early 2016 playboi carti and lil uzi had a joint tour and they stopped by numbers and not going to that is one of my biggest regrets of that year, and my life more broadly

i feel like i've been complaining a lot recently. like, today i wrote in my notes that 'the same people that love to complain about others supporting kanye by listening to his album after he made those comments also continually share things like videos of azalea banks even after she's had her slew of "problematic" behavior. i don't personally care, but, you know, something isn't quite adding up.' which, while at the time i felt i had to write that down, the more i reflect on it the more it sounds like i do personally care. maybe not in regards to seeing 'problematic' people, but just the contradictions. i need to complain less. it's not in line with my goal of being a kinder person!