i stopped by the beach today. i wasn't expecting for the water to still be blue, but that didn't make it any less disappointing to see that the water is back to brown. the sand was softer than i remember. and there was less decomposing seaweed by the seawall. i didn't notice the smell of dead fish though. not as bad as it used to be. i walked along the tide, staying just out of the water's reach. didn't pick up any seashells. i walked further away from the pier and found many molted crab shells. cancer season is right around the corner. maybe it was a sign

i think that riding along with a friend in new york has rubbed off on me. i've noticed that i get agitated easily while driving. someone honked at me while i was dropping off my sister near the galeria and i thought about lowering the window and flicking them off. i also said obscenities when someone honked at me at a corner cause i didn't turn right fast enough. it's kind of funny, cause it's not like me to get that irritated