here are some thoughts and feelings i had while on lsd the other day

riding through the city i feel like i'm the only one that actually exists. like a video game maybe. no consequences. except there are

you know how you're always paranoid when you're on drugs that something bad is going to happen even though there's no reason for it to happen? well for whatever reason the security alarm at the library went off as i was trying to leave and i kind of freaked out cause i did not want to talk to anyone, especially security, but whatever

watched a mother duck swim across the bayou with her ducklings trailing behind her. felt very happy

i think in general i've just felt really small. yeah. the whole thins has been very humbling from riding through downtown to being in the library to leaving and trying to go home and getting sidetracked by the bayou. saw how small i am and how small my life is

was outside with my dog. i felt i could hear every sound in the neighborhood. thought about how dogs have really good hearing. turned to maya and said 'damn bitch you live like this?'

that's all i wrote down

the trip lasted a little over eight and a half hours. felt nice. good insights. also a bunch of generally useless thoughts

i felt it was very therapeutic. the next day, so wednesday, i felt that the world was a lot prettier and i felt pretty happy. was just watching the trees for a bit and felt good. i know there are a lot of studies being done as of late on the effects of psychedelics on the brain. there are two recent books published on it. i want to read one of them. the research is also promising, but i don't like how a bunch of guys will preach about it online like it's a wonder cure. while i partly agree with them, i don't think talking down on people will help. i also saw things where people essentially made fun of the notion of using lsd for things like depression and took the stance that if you're not a professional you can't speak on something. that's a bad mindset. if that were the case no one would be able to talk on anything. very dismissive. it's not for everyone, but there is research being done now that wasn't possible before, because of ridiculous laws and negative stigma against them. it works for me and that's all that matters