my intentions, as per usual, were to get up early and start working on this essay. i did not do that. instead, i stayed up taking care of myself, hygiene wise. showered, shaved, face-mask, etc. didn't go to bed until like, four in the morning. i fully woke up at noon, which means i got eight hours. i feel good at least. i took vyvanse and have been feeling like my day is lasting longer. like, time is going by slower, my hours last longer. which is good. been feeling objective-oriented, as in i want to get things done. i got a haircut. i think it looks decent. if not, then it will grow back. i always tell myself that. the haircut lady was telling me about how she was back in school and that being a physical therapy person and a salon worker( i feel like there's a word, and that she said it, but i cant remember it) require the same people skills. i didn't want to tell her that i don't like talking to people i don't know so instead i kinda just kept it going. i even asked about her at times, that's how i know she's in school or whatever. she complained, well, not complained, but did mention a sort of discomfort in having to rely on her husband for health insurance. i wish i could afford that feeling. i'd be mad thankful if i had someone providing me with healthcare. i spilled mango juice on my shirt... i'm, like, a toddler!

the maple leafs lost last night. that sucked. they lost in the same way the flyers did to the penguins in their game six. where they got the lead, lost it, got it, then lost it. the final score was the same too i think. 7-4. i was watching it with kayla and her relatives/friends from boston called and they laughed at me through the phone. it's all good though. as long as boston beats tampa cause i hate them the most. im rooting for nashville now

should i email this online writer and tell them that i really enjoy their work and stuff? i've considered it for a while now but i don't think i will. i just feel that it's better to keep distance between the people who i admire. well, i don't know if 'admire' is the word i want to use, but it does mean what i want it to mean. probably won't though, at least not for another while