it's starting to get a bit ridiculous with all these weird sensations of the ground shifting beneath me. i was telling kim about it and she said i sounded crazy. i probably am losing it

looks like i'll be staying in Pennsylvania for this spring break, which is a stark contrast from last year's trip to toronto. i have generally become less ambitious this year. less trips to philly. no trip to canada. it's fine though, maybe it's just a part of maturity and growing older. a changing of the tides. changing of the seasons. that sort of stuff. i'm gonna try to go up to new york on monday. i want to go to coney island, and that seems to be the nicest day, if weather forecasts are to be trusted. gonna try and get dinner with Emmett afterwards or something. i don't know. i'll hang out in philly with rae for a day or two. i'm seeing the globetrotters sunday. gonna spend the rest of the time reading and hanging out. starving. the usual stuff

i'm behind on my cs projects, which will be an issue once i realize i can't do what's asked of me and i can no longer ask the prof for help, but until then i'll keep drinking these beers and pretending i have minimal responsibilities

i'm still sick. felt that i was falling back into it when i had a headache earlier, but am feeling better now. still have a stuffy nose. some blood came out, but not much. i have more to say on that, but i'll leave it for tomorrow

the world made another attempt to bring me down, but i have been better about maintaining a positive outlook on life, seeing everything as another opportunity, and it is because of that, though the world is increasingly against me, it will never get to me. i think, hope? i don't know. probably just think