yesterday, new year's eve, alejandro made german, kaijah, and me a little dinner. he called it a little dinner, but it left all of us feeling a level of full that had us slumped on the couch. he did this because one day, i made a comment to him when he said he was trying to be a house husband. I told him, "you can't be a hubby for some girl if you can't be a hubby for your homies." which prompted him to set a date for our meal. he takes inspiration from matty matheson, a chef on viceland i think. alejandro made lasagna (which the garfield fan in me enjoyed), plantains, garlic bread, salad, and flan. it was all very good and i think he could be a good husband for a girl now

we went to a party at another friend's place afterwards. it was somewhere in the heights, but i was drunk at this point. chugged like 8 coronas. at the party, i got annoyed with everyone there pretty quickly. i think, when i was younger, and more impressionable, i would've liked being there. or even just the idea of being there. but as i've gotten older, i've lost whatever desire i had to hang out with people like those, the "alt" kids, artsy? idk what the label is but i know that i don't care for it. there was a band playing consisting of two friends, someone i knew of, and two randos. afterwards, this guy in a large fur coat was talking to my friend who had been drumming, telling him that his band needed two drummers. that he hadn't seen a band with two drummers since the oh sees in 2014 in austin. i found this guy annoying. and then everyone got annoying. the place felt insufferable. they drank some beers we had brought for ourselves. they skipped the song my friend cued. it was dumb and i left before midnight. nothing there for me

i took my youngest brother to see coco. i thought it was his third time watching it but it was his second. when the movie came out, and he watched it for the first time, he asked to get his haircut like the main character, miguel. i thought it cute. he was excited to see it again and i wanted to do something nice for him. i don't think i had done anything like that for him yet. bought him a snack pack at the concessions. i cried at multiple times during the movie. not always directly because of the movie. like, for example, at one point i cried because i started thinking of death, my death, and i glanced over at my brother and saw how much he was enjoying the movie and felt a deep sadness imagining him living without me. i cried when the movie made us think that hector was going to disappear forever. there were more times too, though i don't feel like going through them

the library was closed today, which was a bummer. i decided i will try to read 50 books this year. i have to be ambitious. the total of 25 last year felt small. went to half price and got a 2018 calendar that my mother had told me to get. i didn't find any of the books i wanted, and even if i had, i wouldn't have bought them. they had board games there, but no backgammon. when leaving i ran into a friend. talked for five minutes. i considered going to the coffee place i used to frequent, agora, but i decided to leave that for another time. maybe thursday, after i visit the museums for free

was invited to another party but its in baytown, a good 40-50 minute drive. didn't go. i haven't been sleeping much. i've been falling asleep around 4am and waking up at 9am the past few days and today it caught up with me. fell asleep for most of the evening. finished the episodes of black mirror i was recommended. overall i don't care for the show. i've said that but i figured it would be good to sum it all up again. bought some clothes from a thrift store. got two jackets, a sweater, and a long sleeve for 14$ total, which i called a steal. i did swap a price tag though, so it's disingenuous to make it sound like the place was actually that cheap