never got canes

been in a bad mood all day, i think it's cause i only got three hours of sleep last night. that added with the stress of everything i have to get done

ive been avoiding looking at my school inbox. consequently forgot to email my professors that i would be missing class this week. i'll just tell them later i guess

i want to sleep through tomorrow, like, i don't want to be awake at all this thursday

i remember senior year, my teachers were trying to prepare us for college by showing us different "dorm hacks". on of the days included cooking with non traditional supplies. i remember them being proud of a recipe for a cake in a mug you can make using a microwave. i thought the idea of going through the trouble of making a cake but with a microwave was ridiculous. i hated these ideas. ramen in a coffee pot? seriously just heat water in a bowl. yesterday i saw a video for lasagna in a mug and i kind of lost it. who does that? all the ingredients for lasagna only to make that in a mug-- that's absurd. its stupid. i think anyone who finds that amusing or clever or ingenious should be shot in the foot

i haven't wanted a cigarette in a while

summer 17' i went to minnesota to see eduardo. he gave me a tab of acid and i took it. the weather was perfect that day, and i distinctly remember walking out onto a field, on to the hill of three oaks, aptly called that because it was a hill with three oaks. he played the playlist i had made him a few years ago. seattle party by chastity belt played. i remember staring out into the green fields, windmills and dark green leaves separating the deep blue sky from the earth. it was peaceful. it is a good memory and one of the prettiest things ive seen while on acid, maybe one of the prettiest things i've seen in general

i feel fatter, compared to how i felt a month ago