it's always amusing to recollect on the thoughts i had while on drugs. the last time i was on lsd, i went to a rendition of hair, the musical. it was about midway through when I started feeling everything. during the intermission, everyones' voices felt like whispers in my brain. very odd. kept thinking of the word "outrageous." i think that word is good. it's rarely abused and it adds a lot to any sentence that uses it. thought about how small everything is. like this elaborate musical is going on, in a theatre, while the world keeps spinning, not giving it a single thought. i don't think about this much when i'm not on drugs, but at that moment, that seemed absurd. of course, it got worse after that, largely because i dropped more. did a bunch of other thinking, like could i give my life away to some random person that would enjoy it more? that's not to say i don't appreciate what i have, but i'm sure there's at least one other person on this planet that would love the life i have. i felt ridiculous. nothing i said came out how i intended, felt that anyone could see how dumb i look. how dumb i sound. but that went away with the night