the new season of black mirror was released yesterday, and it seems everyone around me loves that show. i remember watching the first two episodes of season one, and vaguely remember the third one, in diamond's room last year. i had been meaning to watch the first episode of season two, since i liked the idea of creating an a.i. to replace someone. i read an article online about someone who did something like that. the article referenced the episode. i watched it today, and i felt underwhelmed. it was fine. good acting, but i ultimately took nothing from it. i then watched the first episode of season four, the star trek inspired one. i think that episode fell for the same trope of a misunderstood genius losing his way because people used him, so he creates a world where he has all the control. it was cool that it took it from the vantage point of a female lead, but again, it was a tired out narrative. there are two more episodes i keep hearing about from season four that i may or may not watch. i don't think this show is for me. i just don't get it. not gonna be contrarian about it, just admit that i don't particularly care for it

i lost my headphones at work. it's annoying to have to listen to things out loud, though, to be fair, i haven't been listening to too many things this week. have gotten a bit tired of music. need a break from it. this past week there were too many people working there. for a couple days, there were five of us. that's too many. i miss how it was a couple years ago, when it was only two of us. i reminisce on the simplicity of that time. back when i could work in quiet. didn't have to interact with people apart from whatever customers came by. we're having a harry potter themed art show in a couple weeks. i want to make something, something that would sell, even if only for 20$ or less. but i can't think of anything to make. i never cared much about the series. the movies were fine, but i never watched all of them. and i tried reading the books but never finished more than half of one

why are garfield related items difficult to come by now? there was nothing even remotely related to him in neither the target nor the walmart i stopped by. he's a good cat. i remember the art asylum had a small book of garfield comics when i left. i tried looking for it but all i found was the heathcliff one. i don't want that shit

this week, the three movies i wanted to watch were leaked online in high definition. all three of them (i tonya, call me by your name, ladybird) are up for oscars. i hope sufjan wins an Oscar for his songs in cmbyn. they're touching songs that i cried to earlier in the year. as for i, tonya, he also made a song about her, but it's unrelated to the film. regardless, it's why i want to watch it. as for ladybird, i'm holding out on that one until the semester begins. there was an article online that recommended books similar to ladybird in narrative, and rosie by anne lamott was on that list. rae said that was her favorite book, she even lent it to me to read but i didn't manage to finish before the semester ended. i messaged her telling her not to watch ladybird so that we could watch it together, since i now associate it with rosie, and rosie with her

how much people love alcohol, and how socially acceptable drinking is compared to the consumption of other drugs, still baffles me. that stuff doesn't taste that good. everyone is always searching for something to make it go down easier, yet people, at least those my age, don't acknowledge it's inherently dumb. it's at the bottom of my drugs-of-preference list. there are better things out there, that won't leave you feeling horrible the next day, that have way more unwarranted stigma

this is a long post because it may be the penultimate one. i did grow to like this routine, though it didn't always work out. last post is an example of that. also the ones from thanksgiving in new york. i'll end this one here