i was supposed to perform tonight, but there was an electrical fire in the building, so the play was postponed. i feel indifferent to this. there is a chance it gets cancelled altogether, which i hope is not the case. i was staring at the fire alarm, thinking about what it must feel to push that red button, curl my fingers around the handle, and pull it down. next thing i know, the alarm goes off. which freaked me out cause i was thinking about it and it happened. maybe its my "vegan powers" (see, scott pilgrim). crazy if true

i umm... drank a beer in the shower. felt very efficient

i feel as though i am being avoided? like i did something worng, which is very likely, cause i am dumb. i like to think i'm over exaggerating and it's all in my mind, but i can't be sure. plus i like to blame myself for things. feel like deactivating social media again

part of me thinks this net neutrality thing isn't as big of an issue to me, as it may be to others. i think it'll finally force me to log off. i wouldn't pay more; i'd just not use it for social media. which is a good thing, those sites only make me feel ridiculous