at some point in september/october i had this weird, weeks long episode in which i started deleting a bunch of old tweets in some strange, anxiety-fueled impulse. it did placate me a bit. there was a catharsis in knowing all those words are gone forever. i still feel that i need to delete more, but for the time being, i'm content with what is currently on there. the problem i face today is that nothing ever feels good enough. i tweet something and regret it seconds or minutes later. then delete it. not sure why that is. it's not that serious, it's a glorified message board, but here i am

apparently, someone gave me a bad review. my coworker told me that after i left for school, the store got a review on facebook or something where i was singled out. apparently someone said that when they asked to buy something, i said "no" and then promptly placed the item behind the counter, out of view. i don't remember doing that, but it does sound like me. my coworker said the person was probably trying to barter with me and that i told them no. this seems accurate. the funny thing was that we all god bad reviews in succession. i got one. my coworker got one. even my boss got one (ha!) which is very funny since she owns the place

i like the weather. made biking to and from work fun. didn't sweat much. i like to thing i'm good at giving gifts. i always find neat things that i think people will like, but i don't often give them out, since i think it could be perceived the wrong way. what's the "wrong" way? i'm not sure. i just know that people don't often just randomly give others things, unless they're very close, which i cant think of anyone i'm at that level with yet. i think i ranted about gift giving in a previous post so i'm gonna cut this here

i finally checked my semester grades and found that i did not fail calc 2, which came as a huge relief. now i should be able to study abroad spring 2019, in a better program than the ones i had available to me earlier in the semester. my other grades were a, a-, a-, s, and s. 18 credits total. not bad