i went to an award ceremony for my youngest brother. the thing started at eight, and i got there twenty after seven. i was the third person there and before i knew it, the place was crowded. when they did finally open the door, all these latina moms rushed in and took every seat on the front row. they sat in one chair, and put their purses in the other. saving it. i was annoyed of course. i'd been waiting there longer than all of them, but i didn't try to argue. i think i'm a better person for that

i saw alejandro today. i went over to his place and we made some banana bread muffins. we talked about many things. he told me about how st.edwards is raising tuition because it hasn't been enrolling enough students and it depends on the tuition money they would pay. about other schools he's applied to. i mentioned my idea from the other day to him. he seemed confused at first and later understood. we talked about what it means to be 'woke' and words like 'latinx'. i said i vary my vocab depending on my audience. some people care, some don't. it's all a performative thing i feel. not just for me, but for a lot of people. am i being problematic for that? probably. don't care though. i told him i always wonder which one of us will die first, and he said he thinks it will be him. i doubt that