had plans to wake up early and take advantage of all the free time I had today but of course i didn't do that. i woke up to the various alarms i had set but i chose to go back to bed because i feel that today doesn't matter, and that, to a larger extent, this month doesn't matter. i'm feeling hopeless again. i had to force myself out of bed to go eat. and i regretted eating lunch just after

i listened to andrew jackson jihad's first album for the first time in a while. i guess i was just in the mood to hear about how the world sucks but it's okay because its a uniformity we all face (though not really). i remember listening to it a lot in june of 2015, when my younger siblings were going to summer school and i would sit in the parking lot waiting on them. i know they changed their name to ajj recently, like two years ago. i think. i'm really just throwing numbers out there. they outgrew the old name, which is an understandable sentiment, though i still referrer to them by it because it's what i'm more comfortable with. is that problematic? i've also been listening to girl band today. 'the early years' ep is a really good one. 'lawman' is really good, and so is 'i love you'. i think my favortie lyric is "why they hiding bodies under my garage?". who's hinding bodies and why under his garage? it's a good question. i bought their album, 'holding hands with jamie' in august before my freshman year of college. i got it at vinal edge in the heights. it's a good album, but i prefer the ep because it's more concise and straightforward. they're noise rock though, so it's all dumb

the classes i really wanted were both taken and have a waitlist of five and fourteen, which is part of why i'm feeling hopeless. i would usually say something along the lines of the world being against me, and though i am thinking that, i'm not going to directly declare that here, today

still haven't spun a record with colin this semester

keep forgetting to mail the asos shoes back, it's gonna be a while before i see my money again