finally read 'god box' by mallory whitten. i feel the review on the back cover by andrew weatherhead is accurate and says basically everything i would want to say, but much more eloquently. it's about mental illness, but it doesn't approach that topic through the usual, sympathy-desiring manner. ("desiring" sounds too harsh) it kind of makes mental illness an obstacle to be overcome. i think. anyway, i recommend

the way everyone drinks makes me want to go sober, but only temporarily. i don't like seeing my friends binge drink on social media. i haven't found that amusing in years, if ever. i kind of get grossed out by it, cause there's more to life than getting drunk every wekeend, but i know if i had ready access i would probably due the same. though i do question whether that would be the case if i were home and not in collegeville. either way i was invited to a sorority party and i know there's gonna be a lot of drinking and that kind of bother me because the next day is st patrick's day, which is also full of drinking. i also have other things i want to do. i guess i'll figure it out then

got a burger from lower for the first time since i started school here. it was fine. i was kind of craving it when i was in class so i figured i'd get it

feeling motivated to read again. maybe it's cause i know my weeks here are counting down, though they have always been, so i don't want to attribute it to that entirely