i think my recent inability to write blog posts that aren't just a few lines long stems from me losing interest in blogging. like, i no longer feel it's as necessary to my life as i did even just three weeks ago

was thinking about how i've been feeling a lot better in general as of late. this was while at work. then i started feeling bad. i guess i spent too much time thinking about trivial things and it went downhill from there

it's rainy and about 40 degrees

gonna be hosting a discussion on 'call me by your name' (2017) tomorrow night. should be good. it'll be my third time watching it. i still like the movie, though i understand why people don't. it's usually because of the age gap in the relationship. i overlook it, since it's fictional. the boston globe published a piece about how the movie romanticizes abuse. it made some good points. i'm gonna bring it up tomorrow, but one thing i didn't really agree with was the last point. the author said that elio would be depressed and maybe even suicidal because of oliver's abuse. when saying this, the author pointed to oliver leaving and getting engaged. anyway, i feel like anyone could be both those things after any breakup, especially the first meaningful one. i don't feel that the author made that point convincing. i don't know. i don't hold consistent opinions on anything

if all goes well, i should have all a's at the midpoint of this semester. which is next friday

still haven't made this agua de jamaica. i have everything i need minus the pot, which i can borrow, so there's really no excuse now. i've been saying i'd make it for ~four weeks now, i think

sufjan is releasing his tonya harding song on a seven inch record in march/april. he's also releasing his songs in 'call me by your name' (2017) on a ten inch record on april 21, for record store day. i want to get both, for my collection