took antidepressants for the first time. i don't remember how much medicine was in each little zoloft pill but i took two. i think it helped. haven't felt and morbid thoughts today. also helped me stay on task a bit, kinds like adderall or whatever. at some moments i thought that it would inhibit my ability to have fun. emmett was here and i was scared that i wouldn't laugh or have fun, which is crazy considering that's all i do when he's around. had a snowball fight in this season first snow

performed in a play for the first time. fucked up a fair amount, but so did everyone else. i'll reflect on this later